Once again,I'm here to share my feelings to everyone out there.Maybe no one will be interested,but I've no one to turn to(not even my own girlfriend).
If anyone remember,I have this girlfriend,J.It's been two months since I blogged about what happened to our relationship.And now,I felt the difference in our relationship.
After her mum caught us together for a few times,things became really different.We don't sms(because her father is so rich and smart that he got this copy of J's phone card,so  more...

Once again,I'm here to share my feelings to everyone out there.Maybe no one will be interested,but I've no one to turn to(not even my own girlfriend).
If anyone remember,I have this girlfriend,J.It's been two months since I blogged about what happened to our relationship.And now,I felt the difference in our relationship.
After her mum caught us together for a few times,things became really different.We don't sms(because her father is so rich and smart that he got this copy of J's phone card,so whatever messages sent to J's phone will be received by her father), conversations between us really became so much lesser.We can't meet up oftenly,we can't do shopping together,watch movie together because we never know if any private investigators are following us.
Love letters,couple rings given to her by me are kept in school because she can't bring it home.
And furthermore,she's so busy with her stuffs such as dancing,acting,composing,star grooming course almost everyday,and knowing that we can't message throughout the day(to check out on her),I always waited for her call at night,when she's finally free and has the time to talk to me.However,sometimes she was too tired to talk to me.
And recently,I realized she got this really close friend,Justin.They go out almost everytime when J is free.They go out for dinner,they meet up for movies.Although I feel kind of insecure about it,I can't show it out.I can't express my unhappiness to her,because she will think that I'm trying to pick a fight with her.
That's what happened today in the afternoon when I found out that she's going to take up this dance course with Justin.I don't know how to react,but to feel jealous and envious.
I envy how Justin can accompany J,I envy how they can go out with each other.I felt really useless.
My friends told me,I shouldn't be so sensitive over this,but tell me,if you were to be in my shoes,how will you feel?Will you react like how I did?Will you be even worse than me?
She told me,I don't trust her.I tried.
She banned me from clubbing,I never stepped in to a club once after I promised her.( I was a clubber last time)
She banned me from going out with her friends because she hated them.I stopped meeting them.
And now she told me,I made no effort in the relationship.Is there something wrong with me?Or her?... less...

i do understand your situation.it is really hard to keep this kind of relationship.
but in your case i think your gf is being changed by the situation. for the reason that you can no longer meet because of her family and you don't have time to spend for each other, she might be looking for a company that you cannot give to her at the moment.
and maybe the reasons for having lesser phone calls at night is because she misses you lesser and lesser.
i don't intend to hurt you but just from my own  more...

i do understand your situation.it is really hard to keep this kind of relationship.
but in your case i think your gf is being changed by the situation. for the reason that you can no longer meet because of her family and you don't have time to spend for each other, she might be looking for a company that you cannot give to her at the moment.
and maybe the reasons for having lesser phone calls at night is because she misses you lesser and lesser.
i don't intend to hurt you but just from my own experince this is a sign that she doesn't feel the need of having you.
and if you both will not be strong enough to fight for the relationship, i think for now there is no way for the relationship to work. less...

dam im sorta in the same situation..kinda not really. mine is bi. we dated and broke up and now she is back with her ex bf..i know i cant measure up to what he can giv her. he wont let her talk to me and we only see each other when she is at her house. i still hav feelings for her but i dont kno what to do. as for u, this girl sounds like she is messin around with you, follow ur heart and do as it says. when ever u are with her again, tell her everything, write her a letter n hav someone else   more...

dam im sorta in the same situation..kinda not really. mine is bi. we dated and broke up and now she is back with her ex bf..i know i cant measure up to what he can giv her. he wont let her talk to me and we only see each other when she is at her house. i still hav feelings for her but i dont kno what to do. as for u, this girl sounds like she is messin around with you, follow ur heart and do as it says. when ever u are with her again, tell her everything, write her a letter n hav someone else giv it to her try changin a name it worked for me less...

Sounds like she's either playing gamws with you or just doesn't have the courage to tell you that she just doesn't want to play with you anymore. Since I don't know you at all I'm just reacting to your words. Sounds like you might want to find a new palymate.